Hello! I'm Hui Yun :)
I love songs louder than what you can imagine.
Jeremy DePoyster, Hayley Williams, Kim Hyun Joong & SHINee are love.
Alex Evans is my hero.
TDWP is my ulimate favourite band.
I adore cartoon bats.
I'm obsessed with the Twilight Saga.
I love my sparkly vampire, Edward Cullen more than you. So deal with that.
"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today."
I love you with all the dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin
and vasopressin in my brain. You are my chemical romance.
If I can hide it all, I will. Sunday, April 05, 2009 Sunday, April 05, 2009
After watching Project Runway 5, I have decided that it hasn't lose its touch at all. It's still bloody awesome. Still so exciting to see them design clothes. Still 1 of my favourite reality shows. Can't wait for Harper's Island. It reminds me so much of a Japanese detective show that I loved so so much..(but the series ended long long time ago.)
We are all mask wearers, With our real emotions hidden behind those masks. We can fake a smile, We can fake a laugh, We can fake whatever face we want it to be. That mask hides it all, Hides our sadness, sorrow.. We simply don't want to show our actual moods because we don't want people to give us pity faces or we just don't want to share our troubles with people. I feel like I'm wearing a mask these days. I just don't feel right. I'm just not myself these days.. because truth to be told, I don't know what to do... Scared that it's all fake, scared that my worst fears is really too much for me to handle. What if the truth really is what I imagine it to be? I expect people to listen, when I share my problems with you.. I expect you to comfort me at least a little bit.. but.. sometimes.. from what I see.. I can't help but to think that do you really care? I just want you to care for me, I share with you my problems.. I hope you listen to me and help me ease the burden a little bit. Just a little bit is all I ask for. Ease the burden by making me smile, help me forget the problem for a little while. I can give excuses for your don't-care-her-stuff problems sometimes.. but I can get tired from giving excuses. Maybe.. I want you to care so much that when you don't, it simply hurts me.. Sometimes.. I'm like "what the hell are you thinking?!" when you do really veryyy(fill in the blanks) stuff. First time.. I feel more sadness than happiness when I see you. It hurts a lot but I'm not going to let people affect my mood, but when you came into my life.. you are clouding up my mind. I can't think properly.. I hope that mask can be gone soon. If you really want to know, I'm still fighting to be with you.