♥ I breathe you in, like sunshine into my lungs.

This is true love? Now that I feel your pain like it was mine Monday, September 08, 2008 Monday, September 08, 2008

1 of my favourite sentences in Twilight series (:
"I love you"
"You are my life now"
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I feel the need to write this down
as it's a feeling that had never occur to me before..
Is this true love?
Or are you a part of my heart?
A part of me?
Usually the guys that I used to date, they don't really talk
a lot of personal stuff to me.
They don't tell me when they are upset with me..
But you are different.. you are so damn straightforward with me.
Does it scares me?
Yes I admit. A little..
It makes me blame myself a lot.
Blame myself for the sadness that I bring you.
I know that everyone is different.
Everyone deal with pain differently.
Sometimes I really don't know what I say can trigger
bad memories and make you so upset.
Is it you are too emotional or I am too insensitive to feelings?
Maybe.. in the first place you shouldn't tell me that you
are upset..
Now I feel your pain as if it was mine.
Although it doesn't hurt a lot as it is not my pain in the 1st place.
But... I am affected by it.
I become moody..
Why??
This feeling is not only very alien to me
it scares me.
Because now I know how fragile your heart is,
I dare not trigger your bad memories..
I dare not make you upset.
I want to see you smiling..
I want to see you happy..
Love.
My love for you make me feel this way.
I love you -_-_-_- _- _?
Madly?
A lot?
Deeply?
Very much?
As much as you love me?
The answer is all of the above.
Last time, I deny and deny and deny that I don't like you at all..
I know the answer deep inside my heart..
and know that I am lying to myself.
When you are angry with me,
I want so much to stop you from being angry with me!!
You don't know how much I want that!
Even he can't make me smile.. but when you talk to me again
It's like I am heal from everything.
The sadness is all gone.
You are like a part of my heart.
That part feels hurt,
the whole heart will feel the pain.
Whatever you do affects me.
Your mood affects me.
I don't know whether I should be happy
or sad about this..
I got no comment.
The thing is.. things that doesn't happen to me
makes me upset!!
How stupid and freaky is that??
It scares me a lot.. :X

Now I feel your pain like it was mine.
Your pain is my pain.
Your happiness is my happiness.
Your anger is my pain.
You are a piece of my heart.
It is you that makes me happy.
It is you that makes me sad.
It is you that makes me laugh.
I want you only..
I want to be with you only..
I want to love you..
I want to love you with all my heart.
You are a part of me that I can't deny.
I love you!
Forever. That is all I want.

xoxo Hui Yun 8/9/08